Monthly Archives: April 2012


A monster pursues me,

mercilessly hunting me down.

I’ve tried to escape it,

tired to runaway or fight,

but nothing seems to work.

Every time I dodge away,

there it is beside me again.

I quickly turn around to flee,

only to find it staring me in the face.

All day long I wrestle with the monster,

relentlessly fighting against it.

Some days it begins to devour me,

as it holds me tightly within its grip.

Eventually, causing me to succumb to the power of its torment.

Other days I am able to push it off and escape.

Even when I try to slip into the peaceful oblivion of sleep – I hear its raspy breathing surrounding me on all sides.

My body unwilling shivers,

knowing the monster could overtake me at any moment.

I lie there breathlessly still,

praying that God would save me from this evil.

Knowing all the while that the monster is not without,

but within.

Tears cascade down my face as I plead with God to save me,

from myself.

To rescue me from the monster that I have created.

For He is the only one that can save me.


Wasn’t Always

Dry, that’s the only way to describe it – this desert.

Parched, broken, all life resigning, giving up.

It wasn’t always like this…

Once, a mighty river flowed through, life surrounding it on all sides.

No one feared for drought, for the promise of Your presence was the life source, the hope.

But now barrenness seems to overrun.

What was before, is now only a distant memory.

A once strong pillar of hope is now, quickly fleeting.

Even the remnants of what was, seem to be turning to dust. Remnants pulverized to nothing.

Once strong resounding voices, are now faint hoarse whispers.

What was taken for granted is now desperately cried out for.

The world has crumbled all around and the struggle to find our hope is our deepest battle.

We question if you have forgotten your beloved ones.

Our hearts plead that you would come and save us, oh Lord.

For we have nowhere else to go and our strength and resilience is waning.

We are lost, desperately lost without you.

Save us from the oblivion we have wandered into.